Gift of angel as angel

Gift of angel as angel

Once upon a time, I am near the river bank, unfortunately I fell into the water. It’s a mystery as I not dead. My hands were flapping, I thought hands were moving fast but visually I can see my hands are slow. This river doesn’t have estimation of depth and death. Waiting for help, I shouted “help … help me…..” my subconscious mind asked “why are you asking help? “.

“I need to be alive” I said.

“Poor guy you need a help of other to live”

“Not for life, to save me from the water alone, I need a swimmer”

“What special things he has than deserve”

“He can swim. So that he can help me to reach the shore”

“You not courage as I thought, so I am leaving you”

“No loss, go away Mr. Subconscious mind,” anything doesn’t get in right time will loss it destiny and purpose, now my bad time”.

Everything lies in the feet of courage’s man, who does things without other’s help.  No one left to lift me because I am too heavy. No one think about me because I am a day dreamer. None of them talk to me, I too don’t have points.one girl with white dress came from sky landed near the river shore.  Dress glitter in white. She not like a woman, her shoulder has a long wings flapping. her head with crown which show she was an princes.  She sat on the near rock and look out the stars in the sky. I am sure she was searching something. It was too dark, I shouted loud “girl help me, I am in danger… help me, help me!!!!!!!!”

Girl eyes were looking into the river. Head turn to the position where the sound comes from. “Hey I am here” I shouted. Tone sounded thrice.

Finally girl identified me “who are you? Why are you calling me”? Stupid boys bath in the river at 11.45(exactly). 

I just floating in the river shouted “I don’t know to swim, can you help me to reach the shore?”

“What are you telling, you said don’t know to swim then, how you floating in this river” embraced. “No white lady I try to swim, but can’t have the power to reach the shore”. “Do you know to swim?”

“Yes I do” girl said.

“Thank god, come and save me”.

“Sorry I will help to the disabled people only “

“I only read in books, angel will save the disabled person, so are you angel!!!!!? “

“I am vani, that’s my name”

“Please save me, I am also disabled person”.

“You can help by yourself”

How

“You are in stress and less courage, just see around you will get help”

“I can’t see except you, this place is very dark……”  

“I am leaving now, so you can see something that can help you”. Everything lies on the feet of courage’s man; keep this in your mind. While man in stress, he can’t identify the best thing around him. Keep the needed within you; keep out the things less needed. “I too, searching an object in this river, I can’t find it here for past 300 years” I don’t think this advice will help you but I will say, this word are from my grand ma “if the river has the turbulence you can’t view the deep inside, if you have plenty of things will loss the good path, let’s keep the mind free”.

“I sure you will not get that things anymore, because you always watch the sky not inside the river. Until you search it in water you can’t find it”

“I know everything don’t advise me, sarath “ with an angry face she fly off. “ search the path  quick , your time is less , within 2 hours this river will freeze due to the temperature decrease”.

“Thank you angel” girls never listen to anybody, they ask everyone to listen there words. This rule fit for angels too. Because angel also a girl. What I need to search here. Within a minute clouds were moved away moon light fallen in the river bed. I can see the beauty of the river with the help of moon light. I stopped my flapping hands and used my legs to stay up in the river. So I doesn’t use the hand, turbulence in the river gone, river is dead now. I can see the fish roaming inside the river, moon light helped me. I can to see the foot step which shows the path to the shore. I amazed by the things I sawed because of the turbulence I produced by my hand. End the opportunity to find the path to shore.

I used the path, it like step by step stones, while moving out of the river, my leg hits an object. I take from the water, this object is new thing ever found in earth, it in square shape. It’s made of glass. I am sure the angel need this, this the things angel searched here for 300 years. I need to return it to her I thought. But I can’t find the angel, by the time. She showed me the path to live, I like be her friend life long, twisted to see a shooting star on the sky.

Loud noise, someone shouting in my ear, I opened my eyes, it’s my cell phone. I am receiving a call from someone. I took my phone, displayed showed a name raji calling. I pressed the green button and kept it my ear.

“Do you wants the time is “. 

“12.03 are, you called me for asking time, what a girl you, you don’t have watch”.

“I had my watch, today my birthday stupid, you didn’t wish me ……… you are my friend, I need a wish from you first “. “ I didn’t attend my lover call too.

“Sorry raji, I slept, I kept alarm time to wish you, and by mistake I didn’t activate the alarm.”

“Wish me now, other are waiting “

“Happy birthday raji angel……………. Many more happy returns on this day”…” I thought you will like the wish of rahman first… that why I waited”. “Did you opened my gift”

“Don’t act smart sarath, wait I am opening it” ………………. “Nice, it is very nice….. I like it very much”.” No one gifted me like this how you selected this.

I don’t know, how I got this, but this the thing I need to give it to you at this time, it’s my born desire. I can recognize the dream once again god had gifted her to me as angel. Who show the good path all my occasion, when I am in stress and less courage’s “gift of angel as angel”

MOM AMUL

Below line  will be like talking to a friend (with whom I made the mistake)

                                           MOM AMUL

 I am not talking with you but my heart is with you.

 Now days I am not fighting with anyone

Because i finished all fight with you.

This may be the reason why all people close to me

 You know the real face of mine; you avoided the opportunity of other.

 Mistake is all mines, because I am selfish

I don’t know what you want? And what I have to give?  

One thing I have the memories of you. Nothing else to give

What else for me to live; without that:

Born sleeping baby, it’s me

Knows the unsafe with sleeping with others

Born playing baby, it’s you

Doesn't know safe around my hands, mesmerized by others

less opportunity, to talk , to play , to care 

No probability, to regain our relationship

Life is not fulfill, by calling you, as mom 

Dying hard without you as I am selfish: mom amul !!!!!!!!

IT’S AN EMERGENCY GHOST

IT’S AN EMERGENCY GHOST

August 1, 2013

 On fine day, I am moving fast to catch my college bus. Lot of struggle for maintain the speed of my running capacity, lungs resist the more air because of sudden variation in values, heart beats rise, some sweat in my eyes, legs are in vibration. Finally I get into the bus. While moving to college, I always look at my school which is on the way. One strong block made me to entry this college. B.v.n is my school name. My friend next to me asked “what the matter Sarath, why you smiling?”

“I thought about my school days, Ramesh “I looked straight to watch the road, “it’s a nice incident to be shared, can I continue to you”

“Ya say it “

One fine day in my school , I am in 12 th standard , every   teacher in my  school is in full swing to  develop the students and boost them to score good marks in the  public exam. We didn’t mind them and respect them. They too don’t want it. But they are strict in the exam point of view. They add special thing to the school duration, like special class. School time start and ends in 8 am – 4.30pm, special class starts at 5pm – 8pm. Every student in the class, bug the special class because they doesn’t like the special class. I am and few students will be in class till the end of the time. We will not bug the class because we not have bike, in this area transport facility is low.

    I made a bet with my friend, as I will bug the class and attend the party with him. Party was organized by a birthday boy, his name I don’t remember. Party time 8pm so need to come out of the school at 7pm. It doesn’t a matter for me to bug the class, though after 7o’clock it math’s class, I am free than. I am not good in maths but comparing with other students I am elite beyond them.

    We got the circular that math staff is absent someone going to engage the class. Whoever may be i got good name from everyone, so I can get the reputation. Student all sitting in the class principal came inside the class room and said “no one is allowed out of the school before closing time, it’s strict” then he went off to his cabin.

 If we think well, happening will be bad, sometimes very bad.

Arumugan sir is engaging the class just I moved forward and asked him “why principal is so angry? “

“It’s a problem because of you students bugging the class.”

“I am not “

“You also student know, you also in this issue partially”

“What issue, what you mean?”

“Today morning two of your friend (mohan Prasad and vijiyathar) got accident in front of our school main gate. They both were coming in Scotty pep to the school while crossing the road towards the left for parking. Unfortunately man driving splendor bike comes opposite to them crashed with them. Person in bike got injure in legs and soon he admitted in hospitals. This two of them escaped with minor injuries.  Principle is angry with that incident. Lot of scolding to the parents who gave the bike to UN licensed person, and from police too”.

“Sir it doesn’t a problem of them know, it’s an accident, it’s common for everyone. Who knows what happen next”

“Our main road (place were our school zone start and ends) has plenty of accident history. This accident are not happen because of rush driving or any mistake by accident. Our principal, I and person belong to the school belief in something, that not aware to you students”. “……………. ghost……………….. “He exclaimed.

 “Pardon excuse me “what it is?” I asked about the belief more than a time, but he didn’t attempt to explain. After 15 minutes he agrees to explain the belief.

“This accident happen because of ghost present in that area “.

“What ghost, do you believe in that spirit power, that unfair:”

Sometime you need to believe in that area more than physics, two year before one person coming in bike crashed in the road with other one and his head hits the nearby tree and his soul get out of his body in fraction of time. Plenty of people coming in that area say sometime strange things happen at midnight. that strange thing is "one guy cross this road in full speed hit the tree. His helmet is strange too. But there is no evidence of thing happening in night". This is power of evil he added

I doesn’t hear his myth and wrath of the evil power, because I believe in science. “I need to move home quick sir, today I have more work”. But story echo in me.

“Why so earlier wait till 8 pm, now time is 6.45 only” he avoided my eye contact.

“No sir, its emergency “

“Hmm go, finish the homework than move on”

“Yes sir” I moved out of the school. My school main road side has no street light it make the area dark. I am waiting for the bus. bus is not arrived yet, now the time is  7.30pm. It’s already late. I need to get the other facility, either by lift or by walk. Walk is not possible at this time; I need go 14 km to reach the destination point. I prefer lift and I raised my left hand with thumbs up sign. But the thought of ghost in that area side remind me to work fast. I hurried in action.

My eyes stretched and concentrated on the road. Darkness, deep silent, I too standing near a big tree, this made me too afraid. My badness no one is near me till my view point.   

Every second story echoed in my ears. silent motion leaves and crashing sound of branch, cooled wind hits my sweat area all over.

It happens. my eyes catch a bike coming in long distance.

 bike with full speed coming toward bus stop point. I shocked to see it, person who drives the bike with strange helmet. Everything i saw things as specified in the story by sir. I stepped backwards; my legs are shivering because of fear. Bike in full speed, its slow down and reached near me. within Few second i realized bike has stopped because of my thumbs-up sign. I can't avoid him because i signaled him to stop. 

   With a fear i walk near him, he has legs and neat face. I became brave and sit in the bike. Bike moves in full speed. 
bike slowly moves to the path. dew drops reached my hands. bike is moving in constant speed. then speed increase slowly. i thank the god because of his grace cleared the ghost point. 

  Within few more minutes his phone is ringing,  but he not noticing. strange guy with def  ears i said it in my mind. After one point i get the view of his jacket clearly in street light, jacket is with red color liquid. I toughed it, i am sure it’s a human blood. Phone was ranging but he is not listening to the sound, he is concentrated in driving moved left as need to pay the way for a truck. I am not sure he is a duff. His bike front portion is damaged. I asked him “why the front part of bike is damaged". 
voiced emerged "Bike hits the tree in a school area that's why” he concentrated in driving.

“And blood in you dress? Because of the accident! “I stressed him.
    He turned over his head and moved it front. Again the phone is ranging. He took the phone and gave it to me and asks to respond to it. I said “hello", waiting for the reply.

 Sweet girl voice from other side replied " bro where are you, it’s so late?”

“Mam your bro is on driving wait after some time his will speak” i said.

   Suddenly the person driving the bike speaks " i am not his bro, his brother  meet an accident in a school area, he serious " say this to the girl. what ?  I explained it to the girl. Girl started to cry and phone line dead. 

"Excuse me, why that girl’s bro hits on the tree, any reason behind it ? " he did reply i didn't ask him one more time.

    That person drops me in a destination before 2 km from the hospital. Where was he was going? (assumption)

I thanked him and moved to the hotel. "Suddenly voice from behind me, it’s from the person who drives the bike “that girls bro hits the tree because i came cross and opposite to him". He flies away.

 Now the time is 7.50pm i going to win in my beat.

Wait a second, the ghost story echoed again in my mind. If the person hits the tree means someone has to come across and opposite to him. Who is he? Where is he? Who is the guy given me lift?

      One answers “it’s an emergency ghost".

IN-BETWEEN B.C …………………………… A.D

IN-BETWEEN        B.C   ……………………………   A.D

  All the human life is divided like this, you need something to know in it, let me explain. It’s a real incident, if you have dough in the story; you can refer the person, 3km away from pollachi, udumalai road, famous temple entrance.

   Whole universe follow the year calculation and indication as b.c and a.d, Jesus birth and death divide the world. And the people forget his living period.  If People forget the living period of a worth full person, how they remember the ordinary person's life. It’s really tough for them.

Somewhere in-between 1992 - 2010

    Fat old lady with less eye power (eyelid are not visible to us), and with a walking stick ,  in order to identify where she moves either road or mud, her foot lost its sensation in absence of her footwear. She wears a saree and it looks like it been only washed using water (no detergent). In her left hand there is a low-quality hand bag. She was walking to the famous temple in slow and steady manner.  After reaching the famous temple entrance she raises her head, joint her both hands and prayed. Then she sat in the entrance by removing her hand bag and she took water bottle from it. Only thing she had is clean water. After she came to his position with co-worker who been there. Then she raised her hand to ask money. A man took a one rupee coin and gave her. Yes she is a beggar.

    I just came to the near shop of the temple to buy flowers for the household gods. While buying the flower I noted this lady and feel for her poverty and made a question in my mind where her husband?  Where her son or relatives? Why she had this name “beggar”. I didn’t get the answer, I went home with more question.

         I forget this incident and carried out my regular works.

Somewhere in-between 2003- 2010

For every birthday of mine, someone will wish me, who they are really close to me. My grandfather will wish me every time in the morning at 6 o’clock through phone.

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     on my birthday  I am waiting for the wish of my grand pa, at 6’oclock  my landline rang with full sound, I quickly ran to take the phone and said “ hello grand pa ” with eagerness  to hear his wish.

 But the voices from lady tone such a familiar voice to me “happy birthday sarath can you recognize my voice “questioned me.

   “Ya is it my aunty vijaya “muttered to her, silence in the phone.

“No I am mami jayalakhmi we stayed near to your flat “her voice with disappointment hence I didn’t identity her voice. She remember my birth day because her husband birthday also in same date.

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On the following year, I didn’t have thought of my birthday because this time I had first term test in school. I slept late in night because of the exam. Moring 6’oclock, my phone start to ring, my mom called me take the phone “sarath someone going to wish be quick “she ordered.

  Then I moved to the hall to take the phone, again a lady voice “hello sarath happy birthday to you “she expressed his wish.

 “Is it aunty vijaya “I asked her…

“No I am mami jayalakshmi “this year also you didn’t recognize me. She hanged the phone.

My mom looked me in bizarre way.

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Next year

 For this birthday I should not disappoint her, I woke at 5o’ clock, waiting for her wish, till 7 ‘o’clock I waited no respond from any one. So i moved to take bath. She not forgets me but I made her to forget my birthday. My first wish always makes difference.

No one wished me at first, after giving a chocolate I got the respond from everyone.

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 In-between 2011 - 2013

 I am a college student now, in my first year;   college starts on august so none of my college friend knows about my birthday. In July month everyone busy to see infrastructure of their engineering college.

   On my second year of college life on  July 22 , sharp at 12’oclock my Samsung phone rang , I made my eyes open , I searching for the phone on my bed , in darkness I struggling to pick the phone though the phone has LED display. I always placed the phone in reverse direction so I can’t judge the phone where it is... finally I took the phone noted the LED display for contact name its “sathya calling”. Mobile invasions   are good because it display name of the person who calling you so you can be prepare to say their name.

  Friend’s, one girls is calling me at 12 ‘o’clock what an unusual thing I am sure something is wrong in the universe. I picked the mobile and placed it in my right ears opponent voice continued “ sharath happy birthday to you “ ya this is wrong thing in the universe I born yet once again.   

“Thanks sathya, what a surprise you called me at late night for the birthday wish” I said.

“It’s my pleasure to surprise my friend, be happy” she said.

I placed my phone in reverse direction I slept.

Moring at 8oclock I went to the famous temple for the wish from god who made me have happy today. While walking in the main road it’s so rush because it’s a pick hour school children with their dad in bike rushing to the school. This reminds my past days of my school days with my dad who drives me to the school. While having thought about it I reach the famous temple entrance. Fat lady was sitting in the entrance; I avoid the eye contact of her because I have no money to present her. I moved inside, after a prayer I gave chocolate to everyone in the temple.

   For few minutes I sat in the temple. Then I moved out, while passing the way I gave chocolate to all beggar sitting in the entrance, everyone blessed me by placing their right hand in my head. After that all ate the chocolate expect the fat old lady. I amazed by the lady me though she doesn’t like the flavor but why she kept in her bag.

   Then i moved to the near flower shop, I gave chocolate to them, and they too blessed me, owner lady asked me to wait for minute as she went inside to take some flowers for me as a gift. Meanwhile I moved my eye to the temple entrance poor old lady with the happy face talking to the child, who is in neat uniform. I think child may study first standard in a near school. The lady took the chocolate from her bag and gave to the boy. Boy gets the chocolate from her and kissed her on the cheeks.

  “Ram come here, already late now be quick need to go to school” said by a man who is in distance from the temple entrance trying to start the T.V.S 50.

 “Yes dad, I am coming” said ram “bye granny, reach home quickly in the evening “.

Lady gave her money to the boy and said “bye ram, buy something to eat “.

Boys kissed his granny and get off with his father.

That lady is not beggar; she has his son, and grandson. Comparing the son and grandson, son doesn’t have affection on his own mother.

Son made his mother as beggar and made money from her, I can’t express they incident it’s horrible then a rape scene.  I am unhappy about the thing happen in my birthday I got lesson. I realized it in my next birthday only.

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 July 22, 2012

 I got my birthday wish from more than 100 people, but my past birthdays happiness   fulfilled on this birthday because I got the wish from my parents. Without them I can’t survive in this world. before the birth,  I doesn’t know about my parents and after death too I doesn’t know about my parents  but in my present day where my soul is active I will take care my parents, fulfill their needs , your parents are    IN-BETWEEN        B.C   ……………………………   A.D”

        

              

Your wife hates you

Your wife hates you

“Do you know, your wife hates you?  Don’t get angry, ya she hates you Because of ...........”

              India has the population of 1.21 billion as per 2011. In  Tamil nadu has the populations of 72.14 million in the same year of survive. According to official statics given by family court source, about 6000 divorce cases were pending apart from 700 cases for alimony.

   “Why I am saying this, everything will cope up “

                                                           It’s a fine day, new school for me.  I am sitting separate in the class room without knowledge what other’s talking about. I not a moody character but the school atmosphere makes me like that. It’s a Christianity school , I am studying iv standard,  now this my school for 5 years , I will study here. After the five year, I need to change my school, hence school restrict the co-education after the class eighth. I need to follow the rule because they be superior  for 5 years.

            I surrounded by 85% classmates as lower-middle class people only by means of money. They have more mark than me. I belong to middle class family one step up only through money and knowledge. I am afraid to talk to near person or friend in the class because they used bad word often in their conversation. So I avoid the conversation and restrict the unwanted speech.

Why they use bad word in this age of 9. What the problem to use the bad word. ” is they have so many problems”, “no not”. They use bad word because they can’t find good words. This is the only reason. I am sure in it.

    In some case if they can’t find any word or to restrict your work they will say “your wife will hates you don’t do that….”

               “If they can’t find good things in a person, because they don’t know what good is”

Some incident for your view

                           its real incidents in my life

After eight standards   one of my classmates called through phone and asked me “which school you going to join?”

 Me: “I going to join in school named ………”, “and you?” I asked him.

 Friend    : He laughed and continued “hey what f….. Joining in that school join some other school”

  Me        :  Why? What the reason?

 Friend     :  Because there is no perfect coaching in that school and you will not write the public                          examination in your school too

Me           : So what’s the problem in it I can go for coaching class in private?

Friend       : But the examination center is not in your school known, because on the time of public examination our school will give book to write the exam, to improve pass percentage.

Me           : What you saying, subject book will provide at the time of examination

Friend      : Ya it true, my neighbor boy studying in that school, this is a secret information don’t say it to anyone 

Me           : sorry I can’t join in your school because I paid the school fees

Friend      : so what, money is doesn’t a matter. Do what you want, your school has more student from village    they will talk more bad word and there character also worst. And you too need to be with them for 2 year.  Your character also will spoil, on interacting with them. Especially your wife will hate you.

Me: thanks for the free advice man, bye...

I need to underline the last phrase. whatever   he may talk but how he knows about my wife. It’s a stupid conversation with him. Another thing is there no book is provided in the public exam for the student. It is a trick by management to get the more strength of weak students and put them in special coaching and getting more money. They will keep weak students for one year and they will throw them out of the school. (Condition apply)         

                 

INCIDENCE IN MY COLLEGE

              My parents tried lot to send me to the hostel but they fail. At last in college I came forward to stay in hostel for a period in my second year. I got good roommates all studying people…. So no problem for assignment, I can get from them. I always stay away from them, so no one will say me as bright student and they don’t need my help too. I am lazy guy.

        Hostel has different people in different form.

 Someone with book

Someone with cards

Someone with chess board

Someone with snacks

Someone with washing cloths

Someone with half sleep

Someone with mp3 player

But, maximum everyone with mobile phones…… (Phones means someone with 2 more phone)

One guy always with the mobile he never keeps the phone down neither battery is down. I felt strange with this guy, how he can speak to girl. Ya opponent  is a girl, while crossing him I noted the voice from phone, its a female one. He never keeps the phone down… talk talk… I thought that girl be his lover but why he need to use different sim for every one hour daily, to talk to a girl. I confused. The boy name is varun kumaran.

                                              All my roommates gone for a vacation leave. I be staying in hostel hence I missed the college bus to my home. I need to spend one night in hostel……… my roommates locked the room and key is with them. I need to be stay in others room who all missed their bus and who never miss the Wednesday night food (parota).

                                          I am staying tonight next room of mine. I entered the room, one boy siting at the last with the phone, He is it named  varun kumaran. He introduced himself with his name…. and then he moved to chat in the phone. After that he put the charge for the phone and He went to sleep, I too. I woke up in the middle at night, I checked my watch time 11.30pm. More silence, message tone from the varun mobile broke the silence. Varun rushed from the bed to talk the phone before he took it, the light from the phone turned off. Due to darkness in the room he mistakenly slipped the phone down. Mobile was broken into pieces. He tried to assemble it, but he can’t. I am seeing the action carried out by varun. He turn to me his eyes looked my hand.

  “Varun why you this much offence for looking a message” asked him.

 “No it’s my life da”.  “I will speak to lot of girls this girl who messaged me now is better than everyone, she will look nice”

“Its okay varun why you talk with lot of girls, you can love one girl know”

“No friend, all girls are not good, we need filter it” he didn’t take the eye from my right hand.

“Why you say like this, it’s really unfair to me”

“It’s not unfair, if you give your phone I will show the character of girls” he showed his hand to get my phone.

“I gave my phone to him, which is in my right hand”

He made the conversation with one girl named  reshma through my phone he said “I going to talk with that one girl and I will show you practically to filter the girls

Varun :  hi

Reshma:  who is this?

Varun : I am your Facebook friend varun

Reshma: oh, you varun... hi

Varun: hmm, what doing

Rehma: I am lying in the bed and you

Varun: me too, bye reshma need to go

Varun turned to me and show the message, said “he is the bad girl see the conversation how she can say lying in bed to a unknown boy”

“Hey varun you messaged her at late night at this time she will be in bed only, how you say she is bad girl of bad character”.

 “It’s a trick of girl da”

“How you sure about it varun “

“Other boys told me like that only “. “If you don’t speak with girls and filter them, you can’t move your married life good”, your wife will hate you

Every boy has the separate rule for girls, if she fails to do. She is a bad girl and with bad character………………………………………………

Everyone   near  you gives  different  rules for judging a girl, whatever point you remember form them , you make a separate rule in that hence there no rule is approved by a head.  No head is there to judge a women mind.

        Over expectation and rule will allow your mind to have bad thought upon a girl and that leads to often judge a girl. This karma follow you till you get a grandchild girl and at dead second in the bed whiling seeing the nurse.

                    “Without controlling your mind, you can’t judge other mind. Especially girls mind”.  Above sentence are from fighters like Bruce lee, Jackie Chan, jet lee ….

  Avoid the rules and judgment; fill your life with love. Replace your joy with sacrifice. You be the master of your life….  

   If you fail to do it “your wife hates you”.

(All incident gather from people are outside the college not in mine, it’s a fiction)

                

Burn yourself, it’s your passion

Burn yourself, it’s your passion

 “History makes the men as human”

         “Real history plays the important role in everyone life”.

                 Specialist says “if the both side, of human brain works simultaneously, the person will be good in all field wherever he is”. It can’t be the reality for all

                       But I can say practically if a person know the history of his/her family, they be the good among the rest in world.

                                  Truth not be virtual all time. History shows the path of truth in dark, and it’s an illuminate.

               This incidence happen in my school days, lesson thought by my mom.

     It’s a special day, after finishing the III-midterm test each day two exam in that week one day remain cold that’s Saturday{month’s third }

       on Saturday

 I am sure all the paper will be corrected and given only after Sunday.

                                    I didn’t do the English test properly, so I am sure I will be fail in that test. Some type of solace in my mind, all paper will be given on Monday only, so I am happy today and cry on Monday practical mind gave idea like that.

     I prefer my mind voice

                                       It’s an Ordinary class, but worries never left my mind soon. My mind said “if she gave the English paper means what you going to do sarath”. 

      Fear rise more and more each & every period.
now , This is the last period of the day.   

                                On seeing my nervousness, my friend kapeed nalavanam sitting next to me with round face some yellow coating in his teeth. I think it’s may be for his nature teeth color. Who knows it!

                                 He raised the question “anything wrong with you sarath?” then he focused on left side row, talking with a girl irs amu.

                       On focusing on him i replied “not yet, till English paper gets on my hand”. kapeed didn’t listen to me. He still, talks with that girl.

                        But she turned over to the door as history teacher came inside the class; kapeed missed the opportunity of chat with her.

  “What did you said “he was asking me?

I maze on him “I said it before 5 minutes da”.

It’s not hearable please say it again.

I din’t do the English exam well; sure I am going to be fail.

                      He looked at me “today no English class why you worrying about it da” turn around to listen the class.

            He immersed in history class than whispered to me” I too don’t do the exam well”.

 Ya thank god. No English class.

Now i checked the time its 3.50pm, time for the school van students to catch there bus.no van students in my class, but history teacher need to go she is interior in pollachi, she cannot go through private bus , it’s too risk.

Within a minute miss went out.

 I thank the god lot., But, he fails to save me.

 Fraction of second, one lady with round hair, white American look, entered fast inside the class room with a bundle of paper. It’s non-others than that my English teacher.

Everyone shock to see her.

                           She came in last 10 minutes of school time. All my friends prayed to the god, to get the good marks, but I prayed “please took the papers out, confirm I will  fail.

   She distributed the paper; my paper came after 10 papers entry.

                “I am fail, I got 25marks.” as I already said.

              All students got good marks; I felt unhappy, “how can I show this mark to my mom” whispered in my mind.

                      My friend kapeed crying in other side, so I went near to console him. But he cried a lot and he said the same dialogue of mine “how I can show this mark to my mom sarath”.

  But I can’t console him.

                    Madam said “person who got fail mark; need to bring their parents, to get the progress card”.

          I am waiting for the bell. Let me go home.

                 Final touch (or torture) by madam. “Can I see the faces of the person who have failed in English” added my madam.

 I stood up with face looking down. I didn’t raise the face above.

Madam said “oh only one student got fail mark in English”, then she moved out.

I raised my face to kapeed, before looking his face I looked at his English answer sheet “92 marks rounded with circle”.

 You passed in English.

“Ya I did, but just 92marks” he muttered.

You said, you going to fail in this exam. How did you get this much mark? Sorry just 92.

“I don’t do the exam well but I got this. Because teacher not corrected properly I think so” he said.

It’s so stupid

I took the bag I went out of his site.

I reached home within 10 minutes; my home 400meters away form the school.  

While I getting inside, mom invited me like “did any paper given today”.

No I said (reason: everyday one paper, everyday scolding’s so all paper one day , one day scolding what an idea saji )

But mom took my bag and searched for test paper.

At last she got the English paper. Hence she is my mom, who knows my inch by inch moves.

She took me to the next room and keep on scolding me.

I didn’t react to her word, only I gazed on her. My neighbor santhi aunty who is living in our posion heard every scolding of my mom. And ask the mom to come to hall. She through the paper on my hand and went out. I collect the paper and hide somewhere.

Mom went to hall and talk with the santhi aunty.

Santhi aunty said “what happen “.

“He got low marks in English” she doesn’t tell I got fail marks.

 Aunty said “why you so tensioned, he will correct it soon”.

“it’s not simple you think so, he has everything what he needs, why he doesn’t do his exam well”,” He don’t have any other work” added by mom.

“Latha, you took this so serious I think so” aunty said.

“ ya its serious only because studies is the only thing to get him up, nothing else”.  And mom said “I am 12 pass only, I doesn’t had chance to study more, my fate I got married”.

Aunty listening to my mom carefully and I too (in next room)

Mom said “But till now I have faith in studies, though I can’t regain degree or grade, I can do one thing, Motivation”.

Motivation to the student

Then mom added “after the death my whole body will not be buried in the earth, it will be with the medical students for their study, as study materials”.

I can’t digest that “I can’t think, am i living with an angel or mother Theresa “.

This incidence changed my life, and motivated a lot.

 to Remind and to show this incidence, I have a sentence which tells the full story, it will be there in my all work. This sentence from that angel, ” burn yourself, it’s your passion”.