My death
This Happens on April 2 before my
college starts,
Every man in this world waiting
for his death, ya i am not an exception. Where my words fail to stress, where
my mind fails to think, when my hearts say no one else here, situation no hand
wipe my tears, where the skin resist the feeling, lets to death, this are
things made me to think about the death.
Death is silence
to everyone, lot of time to think about the dead body either he is good or bad.
Soul will not be back but the strong belive he is god, even though he is small age
he be consider as god, for some days.
Why i am talking about dealth because i need it, final rest, noone to
disturb. I am mature guy, at young age of 21, think about death is unnature.the
thing caused me to think about death, it happens within 42 sec, and rapid fire
round, opponents are my mom, dad, bro.
I got appointment from
corporation of Coimbatore on April 2, 4.30pm; hence need to add my surname in
the birth certificate.
after an 1hour travel we reached Coimbatore
corporation office, mom is with me as she need to put an sign to confirm my
name. We were reached there before 2 hours (2.30pm).
We waited till the time reach 4.30
with lot of patient we moved to the
record room , where our name records has been maintained related to rule The Citizenship
(Amendment) Act, 1986, the Citizenship (Amendment) Act, 1992, the Citizenship
(Amendment) Act, 2003, and the Citizenship (Amendment) Act, 2005.
A queue is waiting out said, i
confirm it. Except the Muslim girl sitting with his dad is educated other are
not yet. We crossed the people sitting there and entered the room without any
hesitation. But the people shock to see, our entry because they are waiting
before us for a long time. So they also followed us." people don't
think why they are waiting for".
We have an over qualification
then education, and recommendation from advocate. So we faced the head
directly
he said " i will search the
name file of you , whatever the name be, if there is confirmation sign
of your parents i can't do anything
here, you need contact main office in Chennai" he shook his head. So he
asked to wait for a minute outside the room.
My mom on facing me continued “sarath
i only put the confirmation sign, there is no need to wait here". My head
rolled out " how can i go to Chennai for changing my name, mom".
Mom replied “why need to change your name leave as it is there in DOB
certificate", she was cool enough. But this minor change leads to invalid
of passport of mine.
I am in silent, because i can't argue with my mom. “I going to wait till
official information get my ears", i said it in my mind.
Within a short
time one man with white hair, with absence of both legs, with a help of one
wooden strike of 5 feet of my height walk towards the entrance of the record
room, his age may be 45. Approximately it can be more.
Three
children and one lady followed him; it must be his family members. By their
loud conversation i understand the purpose of this man in this office. “As his
second child was born in the year 2002. Because of the man ignorance, he not registers
the name and birth of the child, even till today. Now the child is studying in VI
(sixth STD), child parents fail to submit the certificate to the class teacher,
so the management make the child to attend the class after the submission of
the certificate. So the child was in home for 15 days, at the fifteenth day the
men get the chance to see the head of the record room with family members” they
are still waiting.
The queue leads man to enter the room next because he is physically challenged,
they moved in
“After the birth of the
baby within one year birth certificate must be applied and received with a
confirmation sign of parents it’s a rule" said my head of record room. Handicap
man jaw opened, “but i don't know that rule".
“It’s not my problem, it’s your
fault. If you come before March 12 2013, we can give the new certificate to
your child", finger indicated the calendar as current date. Few drop of
water from the eyes of handicap reached his cheek. head continued by cleaning
his glass with a dry cloth, " i can't help you , by getting the
information letter on march 12 2013
says all the name change and new
certificate is issued by governor of Tamil nadu by some procedure, that
application is issued in collector office go there and made your change".
With a loud cry the man went
out of the room, he had nil choice. His ignorance made his child blind.
We
called inside the room, with my mom i entered inside. He searched my birth record,
absolutely my mom signed in it. The head showed me as it’s our fate. And once
again he explains about the rule which is said to the handicap man but some
extra things he said the website of the Chennai governor office to me.
I
know nothing happens here so i pulled my mom out of the office. As it timed
5.30 within 1 hour IPL opening ceremony will starts. i rushed to the bus stand
but mom asked me she need to buy some products for home," it’s my
fate". Okay “we can go "i said to my mom i can’t argue with her.
After the purchase half hour
and 1 hour of travel we reached home. IPL ceremony not yet started, VJ (video Jackie)
will talk more than there salary. This is also private rule of television
law.
But the ceremony is bore to me, as i
can't find any familiar face related to kolloywood.
So moved to my room, had idea to
update my blog. While entering the room i switched on the fan, but the ceiling
fan produce a noise as the capacitor fails, need to change that it cost 80 but
service fee is 140.
So i turned off the fan
but while opening the
d drive , short film folder is there
which i collected before from my friend , after one film moved to document for
writing my next blog .
Because of travel i can't do
anything in the blog, so switched off my laptop and lying on the bed for some
time.
After 15 minutes, my bro entered
into the room asked to give the bed, as he needs to put it in hall for himself.
but i doesn't have any idea though fan is not working i too need to go to hall
, my body is full of sweat so i waited to have some wind blow over me and i
opened the window to have it . I asked him to wait
An add telecasting in local channel
it will be in 42 seconds, i heard the add going to start because the TV is in
loud voice. Add starts.
bro shouted like anything to
give the bed, but i ask him wait but he
resist my speech, my mom join with him and asked about the bed, i thought
" i doesn't said that i will not give the bed , thing is i ask him to
wait", mom doesn't care my word's . Dad entered the group without any knowledge
of scene what's going on here and said “i know sarath is selfish he never give
anything to his brother", he added much more. i got angry with the behavior
of everyone , i shouted " i will not sleep in the night i need to have to
do my homework" , dad laughed moved over , i doesn’t know why he laughed,
no one addressed my voice or feeling of me.
Everyone went to sleep;
i did my homework in my room. At the time of 11'o clock. My face and all over
my body felt wet, as the room was hot without fan working. I stopped my writing, without completing it
fully i moved to sleep.
I can't sleep well but tried lot to do, at time of 3'o clock , i wake up
for drinking water,, on that time , i looked over my hand ,more mosquito had
there dinner, more marks in my hand and face.
After drinking the water i moved
to my room, but the mosquito doesn’t fail to do their job.
I continue my sleep,
till morning no one watched me as i slept in this situation. It like death of silence,
no one thought about me. full of aloneness
which i woke in morning "where
my words fail to stress , where my mind fails to think, when my hearts say no
one else here, situation no hand wipe my tears, where the skin resist the
feeling "
I
consider this is horrible than death... ya, my death
