Friend of none , equal as god !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friend of none , equal as god !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Who am I?

I don’t get the real meaning of it from anyone. So I went to god.

Whenever I entry to the temple I have the conversation with god it something which relate to my subconscious mind, to …. Think a lot …. More and more… about the truth in me. For you view my presentation about the prayer

Things may differ without you

Everything conclude in you

Something about you, complex ever complex

Not yet decided, not yet shorted, simple even simple

My invoice, it’s you

Whole voice says, surrender to you

Truth, you in me forever

You serve me the light of wisdom

Sure I can’t reserve it, if our distance is much

So, I came to you… only for blessing

MY LORD, give me the power

DO THE GOOD “LORD HANUMAN”

On  Saturday morning after 10am , I moved  to hanuman temple, as I had the bad time around me……. Why I visiting the temple?  Because if I pray to god.  He will help me in my difficult occasion...  I boost myself to the entrance. At first, I prayed to the god Ganesh as my dad said we need to pray first at him then only others.

After finishing the prayer I moved towards the entrance of Hanuman temple. While me moving towards the room, my subconscious mind had a chat with the lord hanuman.        

Conversation is below:

Why you came here?

          “I had a problem without solution “

You think I can solve it?

            “Yes, you are the one who solve my problem and sorrow” 

Is it? But I didn’t know about it?

               “Can’t understand your words”

It’s an inside joke. What’s your problem?

                “No one like me in this world …”

One person has to love others to get the love from him. Did you love him?

                 “No, but they doesn’t listen to my words” 

Without the voice hitting their ears they will not listen to you

                 “Main problem is I don’t have the good friend?”

Why you need a good friend?

                  “Because I need to share the bad time with him"

You are sharing your bad things with me? You don’t consider me as your friend.

                  “Friend must always around me when need”

Poor guy I am with you everywhere you go and follow you with my guidance. Listen to the word I going to say “don’t think some person out of your circle can solve your problems, hence he doesn’t have the knowledge of your life, to make or provide good decision. Even I too can’t do this. I not saying I am the knowledge of world, voice of world. However big I am but I am very small on considering in your circle of life. You are moving around the world but I am sitting here alone. Your knowledge extend when you see new good things. I created some miracles so some people visiting me daily … by sitting itself I can see the new things around me. I prefer you to do some miracles to sit at a point and see new things. I am not saying that I am always watch good people. There be some bad things around I have a power to differentiate the good and bad people. That the only miracles I know. You also should learn the miracles by seeing new things around you with a powerful concentration. You should learn miracles. World will lie on your feet.  If you can’t solve your problem, I too can’t do this... “

 You said that you doesn’t had friend’s ….. I too doesn’t had friends

 Then god “who am I “

Friend of none, equal to be god ……. Be unique...  now you can know 

Who you are? 

For your consideration don’t consider me as your friend in sorrow time alone…

I like to enjoy the things around you when you had the good time too. .

Gift of angel as angel

Gift of angel as angel

Once upon a time, I am near the river bank, unfortunately I fell into the water. It’s a mystery as I not dead. My hands were flapping, I thought hands were moving fast but visually I can see my hands are slow. This river doesn’t have estimation of depth and death. Waiting for help, I shouted “help … help me…..” my subconscious mind asked “why are you asking help? “.

“I need to be alive” I said.

“Poor guy you need a help of other to live”

“Not for life, to save me from the water alone, I need a swimmer”

“What special things he has than deserve”

“He can swim. So that he can help me to reach the shore”

“You not courage as I thought, so I am leaving you”

“No loss, go away Mr. Subconscious mind,” anything doesn’t get in right time will loss it destiny and purpose, now my bad time”.

Everything lies in the feet of courage’s man, who does things without other’s help.  No one left to lift me because I am too heavy. No one think about me because I am a day dreamer. None of them talk to me, I too don’t have points.one girl with white dress came from sky landed near the river shore.  Dress glitter in white. She not like a woman, her shoulder has a long wings flapping. her head with crown which show she was an princes.  She sat on the near rock and look out the stars in the sky. I am sure she was searching something. It was too dark, I shouted loud “girl help me, I am in danger… help me, help me!!!!!!!!”

Girl eyes were looking into the river. Head turn to the position where the sound comes from. “Hey I am here” I shouted. Tone sounded thrice.

Finally girl identified me “who are you? Why are you calling me”? Stupid boys bath in the river at 11.45(exactly). 

I just floating in the river shouted “I don’t know to swim, can you help me to reach the shore?”

“What are you telling, you said don’t know to swim then, how you floating in this river” embraced. “No white lady I try to swim, but can’t have the power to reach the shore”. “Do you know to swim?”

“Yes I do” girl said.

“Thank god, come and save me”.

“Sorry I will help to the disabled people only “

“I only read in books, angel will save the disabled person, so are you angel!!!!!? “

“I am vani, that’s my name”

“Please save me, I am also disabled person”.

“You can help by yourself”

How

“You are in stress and less courage, just see around you will get help”

“I can’t see except you, this place is very dark……”  

“I am leaving now, so you can see something that can help you”. Everything lies on the feet of courage’s man; keep this in your mind. While man in stress, he can’t identify the best thing around him. Keep the needed within you; keep out the things less needed. “I too, searching an object in this river, I can’t find it here for past 300 years” I don’t think this advice will help you but I will say, this word are from my grand ma “if the river has the turbulence you can’t view the deep inside, if you have plenty of things will loss the good path, let’s keep the mind free”.

“I sure you will not get that things anymore, because you always watch the sky not inside the river. Until you search it in water you can’t find it”

“I know everything don’t advise me, sarath “ with an angry face she fly off. “ search the path  quick , your time is less , within 2 hours this river will freeze due to the temperature decrease”.

“Thank you angel” girls never listen to anybody, they ask everyone to listen there words. This rule fit for angels too. Because angel also a girl. What I need to search here. Within a minute clouds were moved away moon light fallen in the river bed. I can see the beauty of the river with the help of moon light. I stopped my flapping hands and used my legs to stay up in the river. So I doesn’t use the hand, turbulence in the river gone, river is dead now. I can see the fish roaming inside the river, moon light helped me. I can to see the foot step which shows the path to the shore. I amazed by the things I sawed because of the turbulence I produced by my hand. End the opportunity to find the path to shore.

I used the path, it like step by step stones, while moving out of the river, my leg hits an object. I take from the water, this object is new thing ever found in earth, it in square shape. It’s made of glass. I am sure the angel need this, this the things angel searched here for 300 years. I need to return it to her I thought. But I can’t find the angel, by the time. She showed me the path to live, I like be her friend life long, twisted to see a shooting star on the sky.

Loud noise, someone shouting in my ear, I opened my eyes, it’s my cell phone. I am receiving a call from someone. I took my phone, displayed showed a name raji calling. I pressed the green button and kept it my ear.

“Do you wants the time is “. 

“12.03 are, you called me for asking time, what a girl you, you don’t have watch”.

“I had my watch, today my birthday stupid, you didn’t wish me ……… you are my friend, I need a wish from you first “. “ I didn’t attend my lover call too.

“Sorry raji, I slept, I kept alarm time to wish you, and by mistake I didn’t activate the alarm.”

“Wish me now, other are waiting “

“Happy birthday raji angel……………. Many more happy returns on this day”…” I thought you will like the wish of rahman first… that why I waited”. “Did you opened my gift”

“Don’t act smart sarath, wait I am opening it” ………………. “Nice, it is very nice….. I like it very much”.” No one gifted me like this how you selected this.

I don’t know, how I got this, but this the thing I need to give it to you at this time, it’s my born desire. I can recognize the dream once again god had gifted her to me as angel. Who show the good path all my occasion, when I am in stress and less courage’s “gift of angel as angel”

MOM AMUL

Below line  will be like talking to a friend (with whom I made the mistake)

                                           MOM AMUL

 I am not talking with you but my heart is with you.

 Now days I am not fighting with anyone

Because i finished all fight with you.

This may be the reason why all people close to me

 You know the real face of mine; you avoided the opportunity of other.

 Mistake is all mines, because I am selfish

I don’t know what you want? And what I have to give?  

One thing I have the memories of you. Nothing else to give

What else for me to live; without that:

Born sleeping baby, it’s me

Knows the unsafe with sleeping with others

Born playing baby, it’s you

Doesn't know safe around my hands, mesmerized by others

less opportunity, to talk , to play , to care 

No probability, to regain our relationship

Life is not fulfill, by calling you, as mom 

Dying hard without you as I am selfish: mom amul !!!!!!!!

IT’S AN EMERGENCY GHOST

IT’S AN EMERGENCY GHOST

August 1, 2013

 On fine day, I am moving fast to catch my college bus. Lot of struggle for maintain the speed of my running capacity, lungs resist the more air because of sudden variation in values, heart beats rise, some sweat in my eyes, legs are in vibration. Finally I get into the bus. While moving to college, I always look at my school which is on the way. One strong block made me to entry this college. B.v.n is my school name. My friend next to me asked “what the matter Sarath, why you smiling?”

“I thought about my school days, Ramesh “I looked straight to watch the road, “it’s a nice incident to be shared, can I continue to you”

“Ya say it “

One fine day in my school , I am in 12 th standard , every   teacher in my  school is in full swing to  develop the students and boost them to score good marks in the  public exam. We didn’t mind them and respect them. They too don’t want it. But they are strict in the exam point of view. They add special thing to the school duration, like special class. School time start and ends in 8 am – 4.30pm, special class starts at 5pm – 8pm. Every student in the class, bug the special class because they doesn’t like the special class. I am and few students will be in class till the end of the time. We will not bug the class because we not have bike, in this area transport facility is low.

    I made a bet with my friend, as I will bug the class and attend the party with him. Party was organized by a birthday boy, his name I don’t remember. Party time 8pm so need to come out of the school at 7pm. It doesn’t a matter for me to bug the class, though after 7o’clock it math’s class, I am free than. I am not good in maths but comparing with other students I am elite beyond them.

    We got the circular that math staff is absent someone going to engage the class. Whoever may be i got good name from everyone, so I can get the reputation. Student all sitting in the class principal came inside the class room and said “no one is allowed out of the school before closing time, it’s strict” then he went off to his cabin.

 If we think well, happening will be bad, sometimes very bad.

Arumugan sir is engaging the class just I moved forward and asked him “why principal is so angry? “

“It’s a problem because of you students bugging the class.”

“I am not “

“You also student know, you also in this issue partially”

“What issue, what you mean?”

“Today morning two of your friend (mohan Prasad and vijiyathar) got accident in front of our school main gate. They both were coming in Scotty pep to the school while crossing the road towards the left for parking. Unfortunately man driving splendor bike comes opposite to them crashed with them. Person in bike got injure in legs and soon he admitted in hospitals. This two of them escaped with minor injuries.  Principle is angry with that incident. Lot of scolding to the parents who gave the bike to UN licensed person, and from police too”.

“Sir it doesn’t a problem of them know, it’s an accident, it’s common for everyone. Who knows what happen next”

“Our main road (place were our school zone start and ends) has plenty of accident history. This accident are not happen because of rush driving or any mistake by accident. Our principal, I and person belong to the school belief in something, that not aware to you students”. “……………. ghost……………….. “He exclaimed.

 “Pardon excuse me “what it is?” I asked about the belief more than a time, but he didn’t attempt to explain. After 15 minutes he agrees to explain the belief.

“This accident happen because of ghost present in that area “.

“What ghost, do you believe in that spirit power, that unfair:”

Sometime you need to believe in that area more than physics, two year before one person coming in bike crashed in the road with other one and his head hits the nearby tree and his soul get out of his body in fraction of time. Plenty of people coming in that area say sometime strange things happen at midnight. that strange thing is "one guy cross this road in full speed hit the tree. His helmet is strange too. But there is no evidence of thing happening in night". This is power of evil he added

I doesn’t hear his myth and wrath of the evil power, because I believe in science. “I need to move home quick sir, today I have more work”. But story echo in me.

“Why so earlier wait till 8 pm, now time is 6.45 only” he avoided my eye contact.

“No sir, its emergency “

“Hmm go, finish the homework than move on”

“Yes sir” I moved out of the school. My school main road side has no street light it make the area dark. I am waiting for the bus. bus is not arrived yet, now the time is  7.30pm. It’s already late. I need to get the other facility, either by lift or by walk. Walk is not possible at this time; I need go 14 km to reach the destination point. I prefer lift and I raised my left hand with thumbs up sign. But the thought of ghost in that area side remind me to work fast. I hurried in action.

My eyes stretched and concentrated on the road. Darkness, deep silent, I too standing near a big tree, this made me too afraid. My badness no one is near me till my view point.   

Every second story echoed in my ears. silent motion leaves and crashing sound of branch, cooled wind hits my sweat area all over.

It happens. my eyes catch a bike coming in long distance.

 bike with full speed coming toward bus stop point. I shocked to see it, person who drives the bike with strange helmet. Everything i saw things as specified in the story by sir. I stepped backwards; my legs are shivering because of fear. Bike in full speed, its slow down and reached near me. within Few second i realized bike has stopped because of my thumbs-up sign. I can't avoid him because i signaled him to stop. 

   With a fear i walk near him, he has legs and neat face. I became brave and sit in the bike. Bike moves in full speed. 
bike slowly moves to the path. dew drops reached my hands. bike is moving in constant speed. then speed increase slowly. i thank the god because of his grace cleared the ghost point. 

  Within few more minutes his phone is ringing,  but he not noticing. strange guy with def  ears i said it in my mind. After one point i get the view of his jacket clearly in street light, jacket is with red color liquid. I toughed it, i am sure it’s a human blood. Phone was ranging but he is not listening to the sound, he is concentrated in driving moved left as need to pay the way for a truck. I am not sure he is a duff. His bike front portion is damaged. I asked him “why the front part of bike is damaged". 
voiced emerged "Bike hits the tree in a school area that's why” he concentrated in driving.

“And blood in you dress? Because of the accident! “I stressed him.
    He turned over his head and moved it front. Again the phone is ranging. He took the phone and gave it to me and asks to respond to it. I said “hello", waiting for the reply.

 Sweet girl voice from other side replied " bro where are you, it’s so late?”

“Mam your bro is on driving wait after some time his will speak” i said.

   Suddenly the person driving the bike speaks " i am not his bro, his brother  meet an accident in a school area, he serious " say this to the girl. what ?  I explained it to the girl. Girl started to cry and phone line dead. 

"Excuse me, why that girl’s bro hits on the tree, any reason behind it ? " he did reply i didn't ask him one more time.

    That person drops me in a destination before 2 km from the hospital. Where was he was going? (assumption)

I thanked him and moved to the hotel. "Suddenly voice from behind me, it’s from the person who drives the bike “that girls bro hits the tree because i came cross and opposite to him". He flies away.

 Now the time is 7.50pm i going to win in my beat.

Wait a second, the ghost story echoed again in my mind. If the person hits the tree means someone has to come across and opposite to him. Who is he? Where is he? Who is the guy given me lift?

      One answers “it’s an emergency ghost".